I’m procrastinating. Should be halfway to work by now. Still have to shower. Skipped WW AGAIN this a.m.. Sometimes it seems like my whole life is a sequence pendulum sways ranging from feeling bad about my indulgences (eating too much, drinking too much, spending too much) and trying with the scrutiny of a perfectionist to make up for those indulgences. WW, marathon training, fund raising. However, I can only stand the “good behavior” for so long before the pendulum swings again to all of the above and more: not going to work at a reasonable morning hour, not cleaning the apartment, etc., etc.
I know meditation – a more eastern outlook – is what I need. A break from my western tendency to make every thought a qualitative judgment. Breathe. Breathe. Release. Relax.
Be. Be. Be.